christmas eve -- 2007 [journal entry]
Posted on December 20, 2009 with 0 comments
after my mom left with my little nephews for the 5:00 early evening christmas service, sad that i was unable to go, i knew that i wanted to have my own christmas service in my heart.
so, i turned the heat way down, opened the sliding glass door to the deck, and just let in the cold air.
i put on michael w. smith's first christmas cd and lit a cinnamon bark candle.
i sat on the ottoman where we usually have a real christmas tree standing...all lit up and covered with ornaments that bring years of memories to mind. i sure would have rather had a real christmas tree standing there instead--but with my being so ill, it just didn't work out this year.
so, i sat there right in the opening, letting the wonderful crisp air fill my lungs--and i got to enjoy the early night sky--watching it go from shades of blue to black, as i sipped and slurped on little chocolate liqueurs.
and i enjoyed the stillness and the quiet and looking up into the evening sky--with christmas songs ushering my weary spirit into a place of worship.
GOD WITH US.
GOD WITH ME in that moment.
a moment i only wish for a thousand more times....
deep calling to deep.
engaging in my own christmas eve service long enough to remember how satisfied and complete the created can feel when reaching for its CREATOR--remembering and celebrating the miracle of christmas.
EMMANUEL......"GOD with us."
so, i turned the heat way down, opened the sliding glass door to the deck, and just let in the cold air.
i put on michael w. smith's first christmas cd and lit a cinnamon bark candle.
i sat on the ottoman where we usually have a real christmas tree standing...all lit up and covered with ornaments that bring years of memories to mind. i sure would have rather had a real christmas tree standing there instead--but with my being so ill, it just didn't work out this year.
so, i sat there right in the opening, letting the wonderful crisp air fill my lungs--and i got to enjoy the early night sky--watching it go from shades of blue to black, as i sipped and slurped on little chocolate liqueurs.
and i enjoyed the stillness and the quiet and looking up into the evening sky--with christmas songs ushering my weary spirit into a place of worship.
GOD WITH US.
GOD WITH ME in that moment.
a moment i only wish for a thousand more times....
deep calling to deep.
engaging in my own christmas eve service long enough to remember how satisfied and complete the created can feel when reaching for its CREATOR--remembering and celebrating the miracle of christmas.
EMMANUEL......"GOD with us."